Unmotivated & Demoralized

I have something to confess to you, dear readers. Going to work has been a real struggle recently.

It’s going to sound like I’m dwelling and obsessing, which probably is true, but I have felt so, so, so unmotivated ever since a very undeserving person received a promotion back in April. Seriously, just getting up in time to get to work has been such a struggle. I mean, why rush if she barely shows up and gets promoted anyway, right?

It’s also frustrating because I’m getting a bit bored with my position. I’ve been doing it long enough that I’ve got things down. I’ve improved so, so much since starting at this job. I’m ready for the next level. I’m also not expecting it to happen. I hate to sound like a broken record, but it’s just so… frustrating.

Remember the undeserving person in question who managed to get that promotion? (I don’t know if I’ve ever said this, but she started at the company around the same time I did and until the promotion this April, we were at the same level.) Guess how much she worked last week, the week of July 23? Have a number in your head? Maybe you’re thinking 5 days, like a normal work week?

Well, dear reader, you would be wrong. She worked a grand total of 1.5 days. Yes, you read that right. One-and-a-half days. Yet she gets promoted to the next level up. If I don’t deserve a promotion, she definitely doesn’t.

Okay, rant over. I promise we’ll return to regularly scheduled programming concerning books I’ve read, writing projects I’m working on, and random fun things from my life next time I write a blog post. I just had to vent about this and get it off my chest.

(Unless you like reading about work drama. If you like posts like this, I can definitely oblige and give you more. Believe me, there’s more where it came from… 😉 )

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Happy July!

Can you believe it’s July already? The year is half over now!

Anyway, I have some excellent news. Remember that graduate program I was talking about? Well, I got in! And I got a fellowship! Now I need to pay a deposit to reserve my place because I’ve decided I’m going to go for it. Next year at this time, I’ll probably be questioning my judgment since I’ll have to balance working and studying. 🙂 But I have my fingers crossed that some of the accounting concepts will be a bit easier this time around since I’ve done a lot of accounting at work in the last four years.

What else is new? Well, I’m scaling back on social media use this month so that I can get some work done on a fun novel I’ve outlined. It’s urban fantasy and it takes place in Moscow. And there are vampires. I’ve been looking forward to doing this idea for a while now, so it should hopefully be fun to write.

The Purple Cactus

I’ve been meaning to blog about this for a while now, but I kept forgetting. While browsing on Twitter last month, I spotted this incredible photo posted by an author I’ve followed for a while.

I love this thing so much.

Yes, my friends, that is a purple cactus. I love cacti and I love the color purple (though not as much as my friend Ruth!), so I am really thrilled by this plant. Some brief internet research reveals that it’s a purple pricklypear (Opuntia macrocentra, for the more botanically-minded out there), I think. Whatever it is, I think it’s great. I want one outside my house. Alas, I don’t live in the southwest, which is why I need to make a move to the southwest happen. Anyone want to hire a hardworking finance/accounting person out in Arizona? (Not even joking here, you guys! 🙂 The purple cactus is but one reason I need to move out west.)

Aaaaand… I Passed!

No doubt you’ve noticed I’ve made myself scarce around here this past week. That’s for several reasons, dear readers, all of which contributed to make me very, very busy. I had twelve hours of training on Monday and Tuesday, two phone interviews (one was for the grad school application I submitted last week—fingers crossed I get in and get a fellowship), and a professional certification exam.

There wasn’t much I could do about the interviews—I prepared as best I could, but interviews can vary so much depending on how you’re feeling, how the other person is feeling, how well your personalities mesh (or not), and so on. There’s only so much you can prepare for when it comes to interviews.

The certification exam was the major thing I was worrying about because whether I passed was within my control. I’d been studying off and on for a few months now before I finally decided to schedule a test date about two weeks ago. I studied every day after scheduling it, but I wasn’t sure that was enough.

Apparently, it was, because I passed! I can’t tell you how relieved I am. Things were dicey for a little while in the exam room—some of those questions were tough and I was afraid I was failing.

I pulled it off, though. I’ve had a glorious weekend free of any studying and I’m looking to turning my exam prep books back in tomorrow (our department at work lends them out).

Application Submitted! ✅

Yesterday, I finally submitted my graduate school application.

Yes, dear readers, it’s true. I’m applying to do another graduate program. I think it’s a good program and it’ll help me with career opportunities in the future, but I’m a little apprehensive about the whole thing. I wasn’t crazy about graduate school the first time around—I found the whole thing to be really, really stressful. That program had two years’ worth of credits smashed into a one-year curriculum (two full semesters plus a two-week summer intensive semester) and boy, was it tough to get through. I didn’t know anything about business, accounting, or finance, so I always felt like I was scrambling to keep up with my schoolwork. Plus, we were job searching throughout the program and my class didn’t fare well on the job market. (Fun fact: they removed us from the program employment statistics displayed on the website. It was that bad!) I received a grand total of one job offer at the last minute (literally two weeks prior to graduation) and all in all, the program was just really stressful.

I do have some things going for me this time around, namely actual work experience and knowledge of finance and accounting. I’m a bit worried about balancing work and school (I intend to continue to work full time during the program), but hopefully I’ll be able to manage the material better this time around. Not to brag, but I could probably teach one of the required classes, Auditing and Attestation. My life at work for the past few years has been full of auditing and attestation. I audit and attest so much that I can do it in my sleep and could probably teach other people to do it.

Of course, all this musing is theoretical at this point, as I haven’t been admitted yet. If I’m not accepted into the program, all this musing is pointless and I’ll have to enact another, as-yet-undetermined plan. 🙂

End of the Month

Oops, I forgot to start blogging again after I got back from my vacation. (Said vacation ended about two weeks ago… and I’m already ready for another one!) Well, I am back. I’ve been back and work is… well, it’s work. I went to The Big A (my nickname for the big city I sometimes have to travel to) for one day this week with two coworkers. Alas, we did not stay overnight, so no five-star hotel stories to report to you, dear readers. All I have to say about that trip was it made for one long day. I was up at 5:30 to go meet my coworkers in the rental car, which made me completely exhausted by eight that evening. (Luckily, we were back by then.)

What else has happened? Well, the coworker who didn’t deserve a promotion continues to get worse and worse. Monday this week was a holiday, so we didn’t work. Still, we have a four-day workweek though, and this individual has shown up for a grand total of one day. Actually, it was closer to three-quarters of a day considering how late she arrived. I’m sure she’ll show up tomorrow for our summer team event. She won’t have to do actual work, so that’ll be right up her alley.

As for non-work things going on—there hasn’t been too much. I’ve been editing my novel a bit, but not as much as I would like to. However, I do have a reason: I’ve been gathering materials and applying for a graduate school program that I plan to complete while working. This program is in accounting and would give me enough credits to sit for the CPA exam. I don’t relish all that studying and test-taking, but becoming a CPA is looking like a better and better idea. I don’t expect to be promoted at my company (I’ve written about that already, if you’re interested), but I’m hoping this graduate degree and becoming a CPA will help my career in multiple ways.

Thirty Days Of Blogging

Well, dear readers, I did it. Back at the beginning of April, after not blogging for a long time, I privately vowed that I would both blog and write fiction every single day this month. Why? I was tired of my writing being disrupted by The Crisis, so I wanted to see if I could write every day for a month.

I managed it, but it wasn’t easy. Sometimes, I just really didn’t feel like writing. Other times there wasn’t really much to write about. But I wrote every day, and I’m glad that I did.

I don’t think I’ll be blogging daily in May. I have too much going on then! I do plan to write a few times a week, though.

And now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to go work on some fiction so I can fully complete my vow.

A Yellow Warbler

Today, as I sat at my table working, I noticed a flash of yellow in the tree outside my window. I thought it was my imagination—until I realized it was an adorable bird.

Do you see him in the top right?

Yes, my friends, a delightful little yellow warbler apparently stopped by on his way migrating north from South America. I was trying to discern if there was more than one outside. I never did see two at the same time, so as far as I know, there was just the one.

He later disappeared and I wish I’d been able to get a better photo, but I’m happy I saw him in the first place. I’ve never seen a yellow warbler before. The picture I took doesn’t do his color justice. The yellow is really, really bright!

Rain, Rain, Go Away…

I hate to be That Person who has nothing to blog about so she blogs about the weather… but that’s what I’m going to do. Mainly, I just want to get a quick post written so I can go listen to my audiobook, which is almost complete.

Today, it poured. It rained so hard that the water was getting backed up in the streets because it was coming too fast to go down the storm drains. It rained so hard that there were puddles everywhere. And, of course, I didn’t have a second pair of shoes. After I got soaked walking in from the parking lot, I spent the entire afternoon with wet socks and wet, squishy shoes. It was terrible. As soon as I got home, I washed my cold, wet feet in warm water and it was glorious.

The offending shoes (Vera Wang flats) are drying by the door right now. After I finish listening to the aforementioned audiobook, I’m going to order some rain boots. I’m thinking of giving Zappos a try. Anyone ever used Zappos before? Anyone ever tried Kamik boots before? These are both going to be new experiences for me.

The Longest Week

You know, I don’t even have the energy to write something substantial today. If you want to read something more substantial, I do recommend my two recent Arizona posts. They (or at least the first one) have some nice photographic evidence of Arizona.

I can’t believe it’s only Wednesday. I had that mandatory training course on Monday and Tuesday. You guys, it was exhausting. I learned a little bit, I guess. I don’t think we needed to have two whole days’ worth of material, though. The highlight of the entire thing was the lunch on Tuesday. The company cafeteria at that Remote Location has Taco Day every Tuesday, which means you can get a nice big taco salad full of chips, meat, and good taco toppings. It was amazing. I should have taken a picture to share with you because it was great. I ate the entire thing, which was no small feat because it was huge. Huge and delicious.

My manager is having a meeting with her direct reports tomorrow. (There are five of us.) I hope she doesn’t ask what I learned at the training because I’m likely to say, “Uh, Taco Day at Remote Location is amazing?” I guess I’d better think of a legitimate answer before tomorrow afternoon. 😉