Even The Best Intentions…

…are sometimes thwarted. I had planned to blog every day this month, but that’s not happening now since I missed all of last week!

I’d planned on using the WordPress app on my phone to blog during some downtime at work (it was during lunch, I promise!) but then the cell service was out. AT&T, a company that must be rolling in money from all the customers paying for cell phones plans, landline service, internet, TV, and so on, can’t manage to keep its network reliably up. This is the second major outage we’ve had in 2018. I am not regretting buying an unlocked cell phone at all because if AT&T doesn’t get their act together, I can leave.

Also, another intention I had that was thwarted was knitting. This was a long weekend—today’s a bank holiday and I work in a bank, so most of us were able to take a paid holiday—and I’d planned to knit. But nope, that hasn’t happened. All I’ve done is clean, organize, buy food, cook food, pay bills, go over my budget spreadsheet, and do a ton of other things I didn’t really want to do but had to do. As a result: no knitting. Not a single bit on any of the three projects I’m working on.

I really hope I have time to knit later tonight. I think I’ve finished up everything. Knowing my luck, something else will come up, though…

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Unmotivated & Demoralized

I have something to confess to you, dear readers. Going to work has been a real struggle recently.

It’s going to sound like I’m dwelling and obsessing, which probably is true, but I have felt so, so, so unmotivated ever since a very undeserving person received a promotion back in April. Seriously, just getting up in time to get to work has been such a struggle. I mean, why rush if she barely shows up and gets promoted anyway, right?

It’s also frustrating because I’m getting a bit bored with my position. I’ve been doing it long enough that I’ve got things down. I’ve improved so, so much since starting at this job. I’m ready for the next level. I’m also not expecting it to happen. I hate to sound like a broken record, but it’s just so… frustrating.

Remember the undeserving person in question who managed to get that promotion? (I don’t know if I’ve ever said this, but she started at the company around the same time I did and until the promotion this April, we were at the same level.) Guess how much she worked last week, the week of July 23? Have a number in your head? Maybe you’re thinking 5 days, like a normal work week?

Well, dear reader, you would be wrong. She worked a grand total of 1.5 days. Yes, you read that right. One-and-a-half days. Yet she gets promoted to the next level up. If I don’t deserve a promotion, she definitely doesn’t.

Okay, rant over. I promise we’ll return to regularly scheduled programming concerning books I’ve read, writing projects I’m working on, and random fun things from my life next time I write a blog post. I just had to vent about this and get it off my chest.

(Unless you like reading about work drama. If you like posts like this, I can definitely oblige and give you more. Believe me, there’s more where it came from… 😉 )

Aaaaand… I Passed!

No doubt you’ve noticed I’ve made myself scarce around here this past week. That’s for several reasons, dear readers, all of which contributed to make me very, very busy. I had twelve hours of training on Monday and Tuesday, two phone interviews (one was for the grad school application I submitted last week—fingers crossed I get in and get a fellowship), and a professional certification exam.

There wasn’t much I could do about the interviews—I prepared as best I could, but interviews can vary so much depending on how you’re feeling, how the other person is feeling, how well your personalities mesh (or not), and so on. There’s only so much you can prepare for when it comes to interviews.

The certification exam was the major thing I was worrying about because whether I passed was within my control. I’d been studying off and on for a few months now before I finally decided to schedule a test date about two weeks ago. I studied every day after scheduling it, but I wasn’t sure that was enough.

Apparently, it was, because I passed! I can’t tell you how relieved I am. Things were dicey for a little while in the exam room—some of those questions were tough and I was afraid I was failing.

I pulled it off, though. I’ve had a glorious weekend free of any studying and I’m looking to turning my exam prep books back in tomorrow (our department at work lends them out).

End of the Month

Oops, I forgot to start blogging again after I got back from my vacation. (Said vacation ended about two weeks ago… and I’m already ready for another one!) Well, I am back. I’ve been back and work is… well, it’s work. I went to The Big A (my nickname for the big city I sometimes have to travel to) for one day this week with two coworkers. Alas, we did not stay overnight, so no five-star hotel stories to report to you, dear readers. All I have to say about that trip was it made for one long day. I was up at 5:30 to go meet my coworkers in the rental car, which made me completely exhausted by eight that evening. (Luckily, we were back by then.)

What else has happened? Well, the coworker who didn’t deserve a promotion continues to get worse and worse. Monday this week was a holiday, so we didn’t work. Still, we have a four-day workweek though, and this individual has shown up for a grand total of one day. Actually, it was closer to three-quarters of a day considering how late she arrived. I’m sure she’ll show up tomorrow for our summer team event. She won’t have to do actual work, so that’ll be right up her alley.

As for non-work things going on—there hasn’t been too much. I’ve been editing my novel a bit, but not as much as I would like to. However, I do have a reason: I’ve been gathering materials and applying for a graduate school program that I plan to complete while working. This program is in accounting and would give me enough credits to sit for the CPA exam. I don’t relish all that studying and test-taking, but becoming a CPA is looking like a better and better idea. I don’t expect to be promoted at my company (I’ve written about that already, if you’re interested), but I’m hoping this graduate degree and becoming a CPA will help my career in multiple ways.

The Ax Has Fallen

Remember when I wrote about the restructuring initiative that’s going on at my company and how people in my department were starting to get scared? Well, it happened. The ax fell on two coworkers yesterday. They were told they no longer had positions at the company and were then escorted from the premises. I didn’t see this because I don’t work at the location they did, but the story spread like wildfire through our department.

I didn’t know them well, as they worked on a different team in the department. I just have a bad feeling about all of this, though. I don’t like it one bit.

The Longest Week

You know, I don’t even have the energy to write something substantial today. If you want to read something more substantial, I do recommend my two recent Arizona posts. They (or at least the first one) have some nice photographic evidence of Arizona.

I can’t believe it’s only Wednesday. I had that mandatory training course on Monday and Tuesday. You guys, it was exhausting. I learned a little bit, I guess. I don’t think we needed to have two whole days’ worth of material, though. The highlight of the entire thing was the lunch on Tuesday. The company cafeteria at that Remote Location has Taco Day every Tuesday, which means you can get a nice big taco salad full of chips, meat, and good taco toppings. It was amazing. I should have taken a picture to share with you because it was great. I ate the entire thing, which was no small feat because it was huge. Huge and delicious.

My manager is having a meeting with her direct reports tomorrow. (There are five of us.) I hope she doesn’t ask what I learned at the training because I’m likely to say, “Uh, Taco Day at Remote Location is amazing?” I guess I’d better think of a legitimate answer before tomorrow afternoon. 😉

Unmotivated

Starting tomorrow, I have a mandatory two-day training session for work. You guys, I really don’t want to go. It’s offsite in the middle of nowhere, so it’ll take me forever to get there. Plus, I did this training last year! It will be exactly the same material that I’ve already learned and been applying over the past year. At least the yearly conference I go to has different speakers and different topics every year.

And it’s two whole days long. I don’t want to sit there for two whole days. The only consolation is my work BFF will be there too and she feels the same way I do… and we get free food. Free food is always good.

Waiting For The Ax To Fall

There are major changes afoot at my company.

It’s too bad, really. I thought we were doing pretty well. 2017 was one of our best fiscal years ever, in the entire company’s history. (And we aren’t a young company, I assure you.) But at the end of last year or towards the beginning of this year, we got a company-wide email announcing a restructuring initiative. There’s even a special name for it—no, I can’t tell you what it is. Unfortunately, the name is public knowledge and you could probably find where I worked if I told you. And then I wouldn’t be able to blog at all anymore, which would be sad.

But I digress. As so often happens, the executives are doing a really bad job of communicating all of this, and people are scared. There are rumors flying around the company of whose jobs will eliminated and when. Rumor has it the ax will fall on a few hundred people in the coming weeks. What departments these people work in is a mystery thus far.

The scary thing is this fear has spread to my department, at least somewhat. There are some people who think they’re invincible, of course. But I talked to three other coworkers and they all agree that the ax eventually may fall on our department, too. It probably won’t be until the latter part of the year, but it could happen. It probably will happen.

Sigh. Just another week of Corporate Drama. Who knew the working world could contain such… excitement.

Moving Out of State

You guys, I’m feeling a bit demoralized tonight. Remember when a person at work got a promotion and I didn’t and I was upset? Well, I’ve been channeling my rage into job applications. (Actually, “rage” is too strong a word. I promise I’m not walking around in a perpetual state of enragement! But I like the way it sounds in that sentence.) I’ve put a fair amount of them in at various companies. I’ve heard nothing yet, though. I know hiring can take forever—many a hiring manager has said this to me. But I can’t help but thinking that the fact that all my applications have been for out-of-state positions isn’t helping.

Is there any way to get around this, short of moving to a new city without a job? I’m very, very, very reluctant to do that. I hate the idea of not having money coming in, plus I had to fight tooth and nail to get a job in this industry anyway. I’m reluctant to leave a job without another one lined up. Yet, I do realize that actually being a lot closer to where the jobs I’ve applied to are located might help.

Or maybe I’m just being too impatient. I haven’t applied to that many positions yet, in the whole scheme of things. (A person can only fill out so many of those applications at once without wanting to scream.) I do have more positions on my list that I’m planning to apply to. Hopefully someone will get back to me for an interview—and make me an offer. Fingers crossed…

Spring? What Spring?

This has been the weirdest spring I’ve experienced in a long time. We’ve had some warm days, but it’s going down to forty or so tonight. That’s ridiculous. I live in the southeast. I’m not in the Balmy Tropics anymore, but still, spring where I live is usually quite nice. Today it was fifty and cloudy and windy. In April. I know they say April showers bring May flowers, but what does April coldness bring?! It has been so cold here this month.

Anyway, I hope everyone’s had a good Sunday. I’m reading, trying to stay warm, and psyching myself up for work tomorrow. Not that work is that bad. Sometimes, it’s just hard to wake up and go in on a Monday.